A baby by the doorstep

Another horrible night I had, and I'd wonder how long would this nightmare haunt me.. But apart from that, I wanna thank you guys out there for hearing me cry, to hear my heart speak, and to lend me a crying shoulder.. Lots of thanks..

A friend of mine told me that I'm very different, am a different species, and was brought to this world by a flying bird with a parcel.. I gotta admit, I do look at things differently, act differently, and think differently, and maybe that'd made me who I am now.. I know I can no longer expect anyone to treat me the way I'd treated them, for how I treat problems is far different from everyone else..

Some would call it a gift, for I could handle and solve problems by causing the slightest bits of pain, but those are for problems I'd solve for other people, not for me myself.. I always wanted people to treat me like how I'd treated them, but it'd came to my mind that that would be impossible.. For they do not possess the 'gift' I had, and would never handle things the way I would.. For I'd had this 'gift', it would be great help to those who seek a crying shoulder, but wouldn't serve any bit for my own pouring tears..

A pessimist was what my friend thought of me, that I could always foresee the pain coming, and would had bring myself to another route.. I was always a pessimist, I never once wasn't.. The difference this time was I'd saw the hole, but still stepped right into it..
For 2 harsh nights had passed, I know being in that hole sucks, and its about time for me to climb out, with the rope let down by my fellow friends, and the strength of my own will..

An anonymous person quoted 'If you love me let me know, if not gently let me go'.. Well I'd let you know, and I'd be letting go.. The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, slip off your hands, love you no more, and loves someone else.. Yeah it sure stings.. The ones that you love the most, are the ones that hurt you the most..

*K*