Sizzling

I've been taking hot baths recently, hotter than usual.. Last time I would hardly see steam at all, lately the neighbors thought there was a fire.. It was a real 'hot' bath though, can't help it, need the warmth.. Yeah, I'm frying my little babies, boiling them and all, and I'll make sure even if they'd jizz out, they'll be smoking hot..

Radios and their hits.. They'd advertise about the range of hits they'd play, from oldies, to hip hop and techno.. But sometimes these asses would really fuck your mood off.. Was on the way home and the 1st song Jinn played was an emo song.. Not to say I'm totally not okie with emo songs, songs like 'Over you' or 'My heart will go on', I'm still cool with it.. Jinn went and played 'When you're gone'.. How'd you expect a 'already fucked up person' to feel? Before this I would sing along and play with the mute button making it all karaoke-ish and all.. Now? I pulled down my cap, wet my eyes and just drove.. It was hard to notice incoming cars and all but, hey I'm here to blog right?

That wasn't the end of the 'music'.. After 'When you're gone', Jinn played 'Low'.. If he didn't had played 'When you're gone' at all, I would be jumping around and dancing like T.Pain in the car, well not exactly I would do that in my current condition, but still.. Even 'Calcutta' would had no effect on me now.. Gosh..

I'm back in Uni, wouldn't say it's something great, but at least it'd helped me occupy myself rather than sitting in bed listening to my MP3 player, or stare at the stupid box whole day.. But still, I'm back here blogging right?

I'm okay now I guess.. My okay/normal mood back then was happy, but my okay/normal mood now is sad, but at least it beats being in total grief.. I still couldn't let out a smile, nope not yet, wouldn't wanna cause the ladies misunderstandings and false hopes.. Though its all comfy now, dark, raining thunderstorms and all, I still wouldn't wanna take the afternoon nap.. For I know if I do, it'd be hell at night.. Still finding something to spice up my life.. I needa 'meatspin' kinda spice, yeah surely do.. For those who don't know what 'meatspin' is, don't bother finding out, those who do, it's just a metaphor..

I'd had my lullaby yesterday night, my night wasn't that bad, it wasn't bad at all in fact.. But still, doubting I would have 1 tonight, or tomorrow night, or the following nights.. I hadn't move on, nor get over.. Never plan to, never thought to, never want to.. I'd just accept..

*Kk*