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A decision that isn't right, nor is it wrong. Does such decision exists? I've always knew that there are different types of people out there, with different mindsets and different point of views. And despite it hurts hearing those thoughts, it's also a fact that this is reality.

Love makes you do the craziest things that you'd never thought of doing it before. It made me, I'm sure of it. But what surprises me is rather how love could change over time. At one moment you feel like happiness surrounds you and you're at the best moment of your lives, and in a blink of an eye, it all goes away. Does that really mean 'Come back to reality'? Is reality that cruel after all?

Going through this phase is really tough, and I couldn't help but wonder, must only grief makes us learn about a life? The thought of "If I love you and you love me, things would turn out good", everyone says come back to reality things aren't that simple in life. But why? Why make things complicated when there's always an easy or better choice around?

I can never tell what a heart's thinking. 1 moment you want this, the other moment you want something else. Love for instance, does distance really kills feelings? Isn't it "Absence makes the heart go fonder"? I couldn't help remembering about the nights before leaving, how we teared and promised each other that things would be better, that we would solve it and be happy. But now everything has changed. I guess this is how 'solving' and 'happy' are defined for her. And it scares me how devotion could fade, just like that.

"There's a time when people would just feel like they don't wanna give anymore, and ending things just like that". A cruel statement, but a true one. Some said that ending things doesn't mean that there would no longer be love or care. But if you love, and if you care, why part? Isn't love and care enough to make you wanna commit? I seriously don't get it. You love and care for someone, but your heart tells you that you've other things left to do, and move on with life. If that's the case, who's telling you that you love and care for someone? Isn't that your heart as well? And how do you know that the former is what your heart truly desires? Is it impossible that it desires both? If parting is about the lost of love and feelings towards the other party, I do understand. But if there's love, why part?

"At times, when both of you can see that you are heading towards a different direction, then you'll know it's time to let go, and move on with life", a statement that got me speechless. I'm on a path with her in it, a path which I describe as the path is my life, and I wanna share my life with her. And this straight path had come to a fork, and she'd continued her very own journey, while I stood on to mine.

Regardless of knowing the reality of life, somehow it still didn't changed how I see it. Maybe it's just me being optimistic, but I just wanna be that spark of hope when the lights go off. And who knows, maybe one day this spark would lit something up, and life wouldn't be so dark after all.